When Stuart was hired to work for the CPA firm, he was given a start date of Aug/Sept 2009. He had a chance to go to an international training at the beginning of September, but since we had just found out we were expecting, he had to turn it down. We have alloted a certain amount of Student Loan money to get us through the end of the summer, and if Stuart could find any job this summer, we were going to be fine. Stuart was informed today that his start date is now November.
This scares me. I immediately look for the negative.
First, the radio just told me today that Utah's unemployment rate is now at 5%, and 20,000 jobs were lost in the last month. Where did those jobs go? How will Stuart find something over the summer so that we can survive? Do I need to start looking for a summer job (I will be very pregnant then.) Should Stuart postpone graduation until August so he can work on campus?
Next, I thought, it will all work out. Somehow. But HOW?
Then, Stuart thought "I'll get to be home for the baby and help you out a lot. I'll get time to bond and be with you and the kids." Yea for a positive hubby. Then he said "Besides, I've never been able to enjoy September, and it's the best month of the year. I've always had to start school in September.
Then I thought "If they can push the start date back to November, what's to keep them from pushing it back to January, or later?"
Then I thought "At least we won't have to move this summer."
Then Stuart thought "There must be some reason that God wanted me to start in November. Something I need to do."
So, there are pros and cons. And I know that the Lord will take care of us. He ALWAYS has. It's just that the prospect of being unemployed with two children is incredibly frightening! Yikes! "God giveth not the spirit of fear, but of power,and of love, and of a strong mind."
2 comments:
Love you Crys! Don't stress, just keep paying your tithing and it ALWAYS works out, even when it seems completely impossible! Plus..hopefully we will be down there and if I can't find a job we will have to play more...and...if you aren't going to move for a while longer then we would live close to each other longer...! I am so excited to see you this weekend!!!!!!! Love you!!
So true. Man having children period (let alone when we are young and jobs aren't as solid) stretches your faith to the limit. There are definitely those times when you have to take that step into the dark and just pray with all your heart until the next bit of light comes. Those times make me grateful for the times when the light is so bright. You know what I mean? I love you!
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